"Mommy mommy can I hold your camera?" "Can I take a picture?"
I'm not gonna lie, I cringe every time I hear that phrase. I mean the camera and the lens are not cheap ........ and I would be devastated if they were destroyed.
Yet I always give in. I carefully wrap the strap around their neck, hoping that it will act as a failsafe in the event of disaster. I stand back while they "take my picture" - arms length away with my hands at the ready in case the worst happens.
I have to let them spread their wings and explore their interests. It is only natural that they would want to copy mommy and daddy. It seems only fitting that I help them do that. I did spend a summer working with my dad as an electrician -- I am sure that was a nightmare for him.
This is the time when they are figuring out the people they will be.....the men they will be. I want to help them find a passion and happiness not just a career. Anyone can go to work everyday and earn a paycheck but not everyone is lucky enough to enjoy what they spend 40+ hours a week doing.
I am their mommy - and soon enough that will be replaced by "mom" - I need to show them I trust them, that I support them and that I will be here beside them as they "test the waters" with different things.
I want them to spend this time really figuring out what they like, what drives them, what makes them light up when they talk about it?
Recently I was at a wedding and a friend asked me about my photography - so I told her.... all the new and exciting things I'm doing, how much I love it, how I'm taking a film class..... she just smiled. Then she said, "wow, its amazing how your whole face just lights up when you talk about it." It is true and I want my boys to find that in their life.
If I can teach them anything in life I want to show them that they can do anything they want to do. My mom always told me (and I hear her say it to them even now) - "you can be anything you want to be, you just have to work hard."
What I hope they see in me and that camera is a mom that was brave enough to chase dreams after 40. Someone that realized you can find your passion later than you had hoped. I want to show them that it is never too late to have dreams and to make them come true. I hope they see how hard I work at this passion and the light that it creates in me. I want them to demand that for themselves when they are finding their path.
So boys, dream big and think out of the box when you think about what you want to be when you grow up. You don't have to decide today and enjoy the roads you take while trying to figure it out. Don't rush and don't choose "the obvious." Find something that makes you light up.
Until then we will explore together and I will help you find your wings....... we will find our joy together!